5/1/16

I forgot to write the past couple days because I got busy.. oops. Today I took a 4 hour nap that was much needed and the good news is a had a dream! It was a good dream and bad dream.

In the first part of the dream I was standing in a parking lot with a bunch of people I didn't know and my friend neimy and some other kid. We were waiting to drop something off when this big grey broken down looking truck came up. In my dream I got really excited because my step brother was driving. I ran up to the pasanger side and was smiling and waving and saying hi. The guy on the passanger side just looked at me crazy and my step brother just started laughing. He looked like he was on drugs and I knew he was mad at me for not hanging out with him last time I said I was going to.

SIDENOTE/ANAYLSIS** I actually really was supposed to hang out with him last time I was in Vegas but I got scared and didn't want to becaus I didn't want to get in the car with him if he was on drugs.

So, we all go into this house and my friends are down stairs with some people and I go up stairs to get something from a bedroom. I felt my step brother following me up the stairs and it started to freak me out because he was definitely on something. When I got to the bedroom door I felt him grab my hips and I told him not and pushed him off of me. He got angry and grabbed me harder. I some how got away and made a run for the stairs where he caught me again. After he caught me I was some how able to throw him down the stairs. I got scared that he was dead so I told my friends to hurry. He ran out the door and he got up and started to run after us. We got in the back of this truck and drove away.
The End.

SIDENOTE/ANAYLSIS**
I don't know why I would dream my step brother is a pervert... He's pretty cool besides the drug use in real life. He's a pretty nice guy. We didn't grow up together so I don't know him to well. I do think he's really attractive though.

The second dream I had had nothing to do with the first part. This dream was the good one. It was very comforting and warm. It was about.. you guessed it.. Bryan. I had a dream that we lived next door at the house he lives at now. I was sitting outside on this lawn chair and saw Bryan walking away from the house I got nervous to see him so I went in the house for a second. I came back out and we saw each other for a couple seconds. He knew I was avoiding him a little but it wasn't out of anger or sadness. I just didn't know how to act when I was around him. One of his cousins started talking to me outside and told me that Bryan wasn't doing too good and I felt sad about that. I didn't want him to be sad. Bryan ended up coming up to me and telling me he wanted us to talk so I said okay. Later I saw him outside on the side of his house sitting on this red really big recliner. It was really comfy and could fit 2 people. He was talking to someone.. I think it might have been his brother. The converstation looked really sad and when Bryan saw me he just started crying. My immediate reaction in my dream was to grab him and hold him and that's what I did. In my dream it felt like forever that we were sitting there grabbing each other while he cried. At this point I was sitting in his lap wrapped around him as much as I possibly could be. He told me a girl broke up with him and he didn't think she was the one but he wasn't expecting it and that there was more to the story. I told him it was okay and that he would be okay. I had my arms wrapped around his neck and back and our faces were touching me. I told him I loved him and that he would be okay. He looked into my eyes and started kissing me. We sat on the couching making out his tears at this point all over my face. He had to go to some kind of meeting or something so he got up and told me he would tell me the rest later. I told him I hoped he felt better and then we both left. I then talked to some girl with dark brown hair in some office about it. I was asking her questions about the break up and then I woke up.

SIDENOTE/ANALYSIS*** Kind of weird that I'm having dreams about consoling him after a break up when we're ex's, it didn't feel weird in the dream though. I just wanted to make him feel better. The moment I saw him being sad I couldn't help but wrap myself around him. In the dream I felt like he needed it.. like he needed me and my friendship. Maybe I'm dreaming that because I wish it were true in real life. I think I wish he needed my friendship. I just want to be there for him.